Ctrl – SZA

Now, I know what you’re all thinking..Liz you just uploaded earlier this week. It’s just as much of a surprise for me as it is for you honestly.

Today we will be focusing on the new album that has taken over my life, even more than Melodrama. 

This album was heavily anticipated after Solana, aka SZA, released the lead single, “Love Galore” ft. Travis Scott. This song took me awhile to warm up to but once I started to love it I just couldn’t stop listening.

Solana’s voice is captivating and soothing. She is constantly spreading the truth about relationships on this album. This song is no exception, with lyrics like, “right now, love / only thing keepin’ me by your side / only thing keepin’ me by your side now”. Not to mention she got one of the hottest rappers in the game to collab with.

Since this whole album was a masterpiece i’m going to pick my top 3 songs on it.

  1. “20 Something” – This song made me tear up on the first listen. I just turned 20 in May and i’m still having a hard time believing it. Like i’m in a new decade and still don’t have shit figured out. Solana put me at ease letting me know that none of us have our lives figured out at this age. One lyric sticks out, “that’s me miss 20 something / ain’t got nothing, runnin’ from love / wish you were here, oh”. This has become my daily mantra.
  2. “Drew Barrymore” – Okay so the video just came out for this song and it’s incredible (Drew makes an actual appearance). Again with Solana it’s her smooth beats and her lyrics that have me hooked completely. With this song in particular she gets really blunt by saying, “i get so lonely, i forget what i’m worth / we get so lonely, we pretend that this works”. Even just looking at those lyrics puts me in a mood. That’s the cold hard truth that most people don’t want to admit to ourselves (me included).
  3. “Go Gina” – There really aren’t any amazingly deep lyrics to this song but the beat just puts me in a good mood instantly. It’s just a jam the whole way through and a song that I put on all my playlists.

This album in it’s entirety is on my top 5 albums of the year list. I don’t see that changing any time soon. If you haven’t yet please listen immediately, if Solana alone can’t make you do it Kendrick is even on this album which means it’s certified fire.

xoxo

Melodrama – Lorde

Well it’s been a long time since i’ve been able to sit down and write a true review.

I’m happy that it came at a time Lorde dropped her new album, Melodrama. Yes, I am a little late to the game but there’s no better time like the present.

So, let’s get into it.

Right away I knew this album was going to be different. The lead single “Green Light” took me by surprise. This happens a lot when someone brings out their sophomore album. Suddenly their production changes and the sound is just not what you heard before. In some cases this can be bad, in Lorde’s case this showed growth.

When Lorde started her career with Pure Heroine it was dark and brooding. She was young and that time in her life was full of unanswered questions and growing pains.

When you listen to Melodrama you hear Lorde being sure of herself, growing into her skin and not being insecure about it. Something so different from her first album.

There are a few songs on this album that cut deep.

  1. “Liability” – This was one of the singles that she released and I still cry every time I hear it. She hones in on that self doubt and loneliness. With lyrics like, “the truth is I am a toy that people enjoy till all of the tricks don’t work anymore”. Anyone who listens to this song can feel that on some level.
  2. “Hard Feelings/Loveless” – This is one of the most beautifully written songs on the whole album. This song is about the pain of a complicated relationship, one that we’ve all had. Realizing you’re better off alone but not without a little sadness and hurt first. But by the end you realize that you need to take care of yourself first.
  3. “Writer In the Dark” – Wow. This song. As someone who writes their feelings to keep sane it meant a lot to hear Lorde bring that emotion in a song. It felt like i was hearing everything that i’ve thought but now they were lyrics. It’s all about loving someone but they’ve left and you’re being honest with yourself that you still love them.

 

Lorde has truly done it again. Although I don’t think it outdid Pure Heroine I can hear her growing through her music and that is something anyone can cling onto.

xoxo

 

Reflection.

Not sure when this turned into a blog about my life but I promise i’ll give some music suggestions at some point in this post.

As most of you know I transferred to Susquehanna this past spring and I can’t believe i’m saying this already but the semester is coming to an end.

My college experience may not have been everything I wanted it to be. I didn’t start off at my dream school. I wasn’t happy or carefree.

That has all changed. After just one semester here I can truly say i’ve found my best friends and forever sisters.

Now I can say without hesitation that I am happy and I am at my dream school, in my dream sorority.

I used to think that I would never be happy. But, i’ve come to realize that I just needed to be surrounded by positivity and happiness.

There’s a few people that I owe this to.

Nikki, hi babe. You are my number one through it all. You know how I feel and how much you have absolutely changed my world. You have shown me so much and how I need to keep a positive outlook on life. Thanks for always being the light to get me through the dark times.

Jill, bet you’re surprised to see your name on this list. When I first met you I had no idea what you would end up meaning to me. You make me want to be a better student and person. I strive to achieve goals like you do and I wouldn’t have any motivation if we weren’t so competitive with each other. I’m so happy that we have The Quill because honestly there isn’t anyone else I’d rather spend 6 hours with in that office.

Liz Pags, hi sunshine. You are EVERYTHING. We are and will forever be Liz^2 and I wouldn’t want to share a name with anyone else. I can’t even think about having to leave you because it makes me emotional. I just want you to know how much you mean to me and how you’ve made my first semester amazing.

Finally, Katie. You’re the roommate I didn’t know existed. You have truly made my time here brighter in ways that you probably don’t even know. I’m so grateful for all the tea we share together and the mutual hatred we have for most people. I’m so happy that those two people moved out because it gave us both a chance to realize that we are normal and amazing people and that we are worth all the good things that happen to us. PS- you’re amazing at swimming.

Those people have made me so extremely happy.

I couldn’t get through the day without any of them and I owe them my life. I truly know what it’s like to be happy and that was something that I thought I’d never feel.

I am SO excited to come back to school in the fall and continue my journey.

Also, finally here’s some new music for your listening pleasure.

  1. Lens – Frank Ocean
  2. Doing it for the Money – Foster the People
  3. i miss the old u – blackbear
  4. King of a One Horse Town – Dan Auerbach
  5. On the Level – Mac DeMarco
  6. Saw You In A Dream – The Japanese House

Hope you guys can find enjoyment out of them.

Here’s your reminder that even though some days feel so dark there will always be a little light that finds it’s way in.

not everything is as it seems

I’ve been sitting here for an hour thinking of how I want to format this article.

Thinking of how I want it to start.

But, theres no easy way to explain this.

When I talk about how much music has changed my life I never really go into details because i’m afraid that people will think i’m actually crazy.

Music is so much more to me than just songs I hear on the radio.

There’s a sense of warmth that washes over me when I hear my favorite song.

I crave that warmth on the worst of my days.

I guess now is as good a time as any to sort of explain what I mean.

When I was a senior in high school I had a mental break and I sort of realized that what I was feeling every day wasn’t normal.

That heavy feeling on my chest wasn’t something that all of peers felt, the nervous energy I had to get up and throw my trash away in the cafeteria wasn’t something that everyone understood.

So, I told my mom that I wanted to talk to a therapist. As with any mother she was worried and skeptical as to if she was a good mother. As to if this was her fault somehow.

It was hard on us both to see that I couldn’t just let this feeling go. I needed to talk to someone.

So I did. My first session was weird, I was worried that people would find out and look at me different. I was worried I would hear those harsh whispers as I walked in the hallway.

It took me awhile to get over that, to realize that it was okay that I needed help.

When I was finishing the first month of therapy she asked me if I ever thought of going on medication.

This wasn’t even something that crossed my mind. I didn’t think I was that weak that I needed this medication to help me.

Yet again my perception was wrong. Taking medication wasn’t me being weak. I have a problem in my brain chemistry and that’s okay.

So, I went on medication.

All while this was happening I couldn’t find the words to express how I was feeling, I couldn’t write out my feelings because I didn’t exactly know what to say.

So I turned to music.

I didn’t know how much it could mean to me until it was the only way that I could express how I was feeling.

At the time I was really into anything by The Black Keys and The 1975. It was a time in my life where I clung to those bands for support.

Music does something different for everyone. For me, it probably saved my life.

I was looking back on old playlists from around that time and most of the songs were depressing, shocker.

A few of my favorites were “Start A Riot” by BANNERS, “These Days” by The Black Keys, “Hunger” by Sam Sure, and “The Great Salt Lake” by Band Of Horses.

This post might come as a shock for some of you and thats okay. Just know that now i’m in a better place. It always takes time and a lot of patience.

I hope to bring awareness to mental illness as I feel like not enough people shed light on just how heart breaking it is.

To everyone reading this, life gets better, it doesn’t just stop.

Just know that if you feel like people don’t understand you that music is a soft comfort in this life that I have found solace in.

xo Liz

New/Old Music I Love

I really try to keep up and post once a week but, here we are.

Okay so let’s jump in.

Today I thought it would be fun to look into my Recently Added playlist.

So the first song off the bat is “Ocean Eyes” by Billie Elish. This song and I have a long history because I used to listen to it like every day multiple times a day. I stumbled across it again and fell in love all over again. Her voice is piercing and haunting and the lyrics are captivating. Definitely a song that I can just relax to and listen without it being too in your face.

The next song is by, Leon. If you remember one of my first posts for this blog was on her single when she was upcoming and I told you all that was she was going to make it big. Here we are and just this year she released an EP and on it is the song “Sleep Deprived”. Her voice, you guys it’s so raspy and her lyrics are witty and this song is one that I can really relate to right now.

The next song is one that I had to listen to a few times before i really got into it, “Hostage” by Danrell x Smalad. The production is something that i’ve never heard. The song goes from very deep and slow to an electronic masterpiece, please please listen to this.

I’m so excited about the song “Up” by NAV. I can’t relate to any of the lyrics but I love the way that it flows. The lyrics are actually hilarious I would quote some but like I don’t want anyone to judge me on the type of stuff I find funny lol.

Then my playlist is all Chance the Rapper for awhile because I always have to get my fix.

After all of that is the song “Reverse” by SomeKindWonderful. GUYS, wow. Okay this song makes me feel so many things. The lyrics are amazing like the way he crafted it is incredible. Also there is a consistent drum beat to it and I just feel so powerful listening to it. Also, his voice has this rasp and it’s actually very different from anything that i’ve ever heard. 10/10.

These next few songs I always group together because they all remind of each other. So, “Letting Go” by Saint Raymond- 10/10, “All of the People” by Panama Wedding also 10/10, “Always by Panama, and finally “St. Croix” by Family of the Year which is definitely my favorite song of the group, it just makes me so happy.

So that’s the playlist that i’ve been listening to nonstop and it has yet to disappoint me so like I guess that means it’s good, i’m not sure.

Happy Listening xo

Taking It Back

So like, it’s been awhile.

There’s not a solid reason for that but in my defense moving into a new school is hard.

So, Susquehanna has been an incredible experience. It’s so odd to be apart of a school that truly cares about you. I also joined a sorority so shout out to all my sisters.

Now, here is the fun part. I’ve been listening to a lot of new music, finally.

So here are some of my favorites.

So I recently discovered the band Terror Jr. Their sound and production are so different from any other artist I’ve listened to recently. My two favorite songs are “Truth” and “Super Powers”. Both are so intoxicating. Their lead singer who goes by the alias Lisa has the most haunting voice. Definitely give them a listen if you like Kiiara because their style is so similar.

Now, I am not one thats like super into electronic music. But, this song “Beautiful Light” by Uppermost is so fantastic. There’s really not lyrics but just clips of a girl singing and it’s so incredible. I have not been able to stop listening to it since last week.

The song “Anything for You” by Chelsea Cutler is another song that I can vibe to at any time in the day. It’s so upbeat that you can’t help but be happy when listening to it.

Other notable favorites are, “Issues” by Julia  Michaels, “Like It’s Over” by Jai Wolf, and “Winterbreak” by MUNA. All amazing songs that I have over played in the last month.

May not seem like a lot but it’s more than the past few months so i’m happy.

I am hoping to have more content for you guys later this week but as I said it’s been crazy adjusting. But, be on the look out!

As always,

XO

happy listening

here’s to hoping we all can make it to friday!

soundtrack to my life

I’ve put up posts before about change. You all seemed to like them so I thought that I’d try one more. This one is a little different. I never made a big deal out of my transferring to another University and you know maybe I should’ve. It’s really hard to admit to failure out loud. Now certainly leaving Temple may not be a failure to most people, but to me it meant that I was quitting on a dream. But, I’ve come to a realization.

I guess this is me now admitting that i’m going to Susquehanna University this spring and every semester till I graduate. I’m so excited for this new journey but with every new endeavor comes fear and I guess it never hit me until I was sitting in my dorm room at a new school.

Now enough babbling because now i’m shaking and I can’t type when that happens. So I wanted to share with you a select few songs that have gotten me through everything.

So first I have to say that for some reason it’s just a lot of random songs.

The song that stands out to me the most is “Drag” by Day Wave. It gives me all my teen angst satisfaction and it’s so catchy. The chorus I literally can never get out of my head, perfect song to listen to when you just need to drive around.

Next is “The Middle” by Wet. Now if anyone reading this knows me at all they know that I love this band. I covered one of their shows in Philly and it was truly electric. So this song comes off their new album that has yet to be released. I mean come on it’s literally about a girl feeling trapped and that’s something anyone can relate to probably.

Now comes “Wait” by M83. One of my all time favorite bands because they make me feel so many things. This song is just everything I need and more when I just need a deep think. It helps me focus (and cry..a lot). You’ll thank me later.

Two songs by Andrew Belle have stood out to me for so long. “The Enemy” and “Dark Matter” are so beautiful. Definitely slow songs but who cares when the words mean so much. Sometimes it just takes a good song to help you realize how you actually feel.

It wouldn’t be a post by me without The 1975. Their classic song “Somebody Else” is so hypnotizing to me. I’ve listened to it so many times and every time it comes on shuffle I just can’t skip it.

Then John Mayer decided to come out with his first wave of music off his upcoming album. So then all I did was listen to those songs and let me tell you they are incredible. My favorite is “Moving On and Getting Over”. 10/10 would recommend for any situation you’re in.

So this is the soundtrack to my life right now and yeah these songs will change so maybe as they do I will write another one of these.

Here’s to hoping for better days.

XO