Reflection.

Not sure when this turned into a blog about my life but I promise i’ll give some music suggestions at some point in this post.

As most of you know I transferred to Susquehanna this past spring and I can’t believe i’m saying this already but the semester is coming to an end.

My college experience may not have been everything I wanted it to be. I didn’t start off at my dream school. I wasn’t happy or carefree.

That has all changed. After just one semester here I can truly say i’ve found my best friends and forever sisters.

Now I can say without hesitation that I am happy and I am at my dream school, in my dream sorority.

I used to think that I would never be happy. But, i’ve come to realize that I just needed to be surrounded by positivity and happiness.

There’s a few people that I owe this to.

Nikki, hi babe. You are my number one through it all. You know how I feel and how much you have absolutely changed my world. You have shown me so much and how I need to keep a positive outlook on life. Thanks for always being the light to get me through the dark times.

Jill, bet you’re surprised to see your name on this list. When I first met you I had no idea what you would end up meaning to me. You make me want to be a better student and person. I strive to achieve goals like you do and I wouldn’t have any motivation if we weren’t so competitive with each other. I’m so happy that we have The Quill because honestly there isn’t anyone else I’d rather spend 6 hours with in that office.

Liz Pags, hi sunshine. You are EVERYTHING. We are and will forever be Liz^2 and I wouldn’t want to share a name with anyone else. I can’t even think about having to leave you because it makes me emotional. I just want you to know how much you mean to me and how you’ve made my first semester amazing.

Finally, Katie. You’re the roommate I didn’t know existed. You have truly made my time here brighter in ways that you probably don’t even know. I’m so grateful for all the tea we share together and the mutual hatred we have for most people. I’m so happy that those two people moved out because it gave us both a chance to realize that we are normal and amazing people and that we are worth all the good things that happen to us. PS- you’re amazing at swimming.

Those people have made me so extremely happy.

I couldn’t get through the day without any of them and I owe them my life. I truly know what it’s like to be happy and that was something that I thought I’d never feel.

I am SO excited to come back to school in the fall and continue my journey.

Also, finally here’s some new music for your listening pleasure.

  1. Lens – Frank Ocean
  2. Doing it for the Money – Foster the People
  3. i miss the old u – blackbear
  4. King of a One Horse Town – Dan Auerbach
  5. On the Level – Mac DeMarco
  6. Saw You In A Dream – The Japanese House

Hope you guys can find enjoyment out of them.

Here’s your reminder that even though some days feel so dark there will always be a little light that finds it’s way in.

not everything is as it seems

I’ve been sitting here for an hour thinking of how I want to format this article.

Thinking of how I want it to start.

But, theres no easy way to explain this.

When I talk about how much music has changed my life I never really go into details because i’m afraid that people will think i’m actually crazy.

Music is so much more to me than just songs I hear on the radio.

There’s a sense of warmth that washes over me when I hear my favorite song.

I crave that warmth on the worst of my days.

I guess now is as good a time as any to sort of explain what I mean.

When I was a senior in high school I had a mental break and I sort of realized that what I was feeling every day wasn’t normal.

That heavy feeling on my chest wasn’t something that all of peers felt, the nervous energy I had to get up and throw my trash away in the cafeteria wasn’t something that everyone understood.

So, I told my mom that I wanted to talk to a therapist. As with any mother she was worried and skeptical as to if she was a good mother. As to if this was her fault somehow.

It was hard on us both to see that I couldn’t just let this feeling go. I needed to talk to someone.

So I did. My first session was weird, I was worried that people would find out and look at me different. I was worried I would hear those harsh whispers as I walked in the hallway.

It took me awhile to get over that, to realize that it was okay that I needed help.

When I was finishing the first month of therapy she asked me if I ever thought of going on medication.

This wasn’t even something that crossed my mind. I didn’t think I was that weak that I needed this medication to help me.

Yet again my perception was wrong. Taking medication wasn’t me being weak. I have a problem in my brain chemistry and that’s okay.

So, I went on medication.

All while this was happening I couldn’t find the words to express how I was feeling, I couldn’t write out my feelings because I didn’t exactly know what to say.

So I turned to music.

I didn’t know how much it could mean to me until it was the only way that I could express how I was feeling.

At the time I was really into anything by The Black Keys and The 1975. It was a time in my life where I clung to those bands for support.

Music does something different for everyone. For me, it probably saved my life.

I was looking back on old playlists from around that time and most of the songs were depressing, shocker.

A few of my favorites were “Start A Riot” by BANNERS, “These Days” by The Black Keys, “Hunger” by Sam Sure, and “The Great Salt Lake” by Band Of Horses.

This post might come as a shock for some of you and thats okay. Just know that now i’m in a better place. It always takes time and a lot of patience.

I hope to bring awareness to mental illness as I feel like not enough people shed light on just how heart breaking it is.

To everyone reading this, life gets better, it doesn’t just stop.

Just know that if you feel like people don’t understand you that music is a soft comfort in this life that I have found solace in.

xo Liz

New/Old Music I Love

I really try to keep up and post once a week but, here we are.

Okay so let’s jump in.

Today I thought it would be fun to look into my Recently Added playlist.

So the first song off the bat is “Ocean Eyes” by Billie Elish. This song and I have a long history because I used to listen to it like every day multiple times a day. I stumbled across it again and fell in love all over again. Her voice is piercing and haunting and the lyrics are captivating. Definitely a song that I can just relax to and listen without it being too in your face.

The next song is by, Leon. If you remember one of my first posts for this blog was on her single when she was upcoming and I told you all that was she was going to make it big. Here we are and just this year she released an EP and on it is the song “Sleep Deprived”. Her voice, you guys it’s so raspy and her lyrics are witty and this song is one that I can really relate to right now.

The next song is one that I had to listen to a few times before i really got into it, “Hostage” by Danrell x Smalad. The production is something that i’ve never heard. The song goes from very deep and slow to an electronic masterpiece, please please listen to this.

I’m so excited about the song “Up” by NAV. I can’t relate to any of the lyrics but I love the way that it flows. The lyrics are actually hilarious I would quote some but like I don’t want anyone to judge me on the type of stuff I find funny lol.

Then my playlist is all Chance the Rapper for awhile because I always have to get my fix.

After all of that is the song “Reverse” by SomeKindWonderful. GUYS, wow. Okay this song makes me feel so many things. The lyrics are amazing like the way he crafted it is incredible. Also there is a consistent drum beat to it and I just feel so powerful listening to it. Also, his voice has this rasp and it’s actually very different from anything that i’ve ever heard. 10/10.

These next few songs I always group together because they all remind of each other. So, “Letting Go” by Saint Raymond- 10/10, “All of the People” by Panama Wedding also 10/10, “Always by Panama, and finally “St. Croix” by Family of the Year which is definitely my favorite song of the group, it just makes me so happy.

So that’s the playlist that i’ve been listening to nonstop and it has yet to disappoint me so like I guess that means it’s good, i’m not sure.

Happy Listening xo

Taking It Back

So like, it’s been awhile.

There’s not a solid reason for that but in my defense moving into a new school is hard.

So, Susquehanna has been an incredible experience. It’s so odd to be apart of a school that truly cares about you. I also joined a sorority so shout out to all my sisters.

Now, here is the fun part. I’ve been listening to a lot of new music, finally.

So here are some of my favorites.

So I recently discovered the band Terror Jr. Their sound and production are so different from any other artist I’ve listened to recently. My two favorite songs are “Truth” and “Super Powers”. Both are so intoxicating. Their lead singer who goes by the alias Lisa has the most haunting voice. Definitely give them a listen if you like Kiiara because their style is so similar.

Now, I am not one thats like super into electronic music. But, this song “Beautiful Light” by Uppermost is so fantastic. There’s really not lyrics but just clips of a girl singing and it’s so incredible. I have not been able to stop listening to it since last week.

The song “Anything for You” by Chelsea Cutler is another song that I can vibe to at any time in the day. It’s so upbeat that you can’t help but be happy when listening to it.

Other notable favorites are, “Issues” by Julia  Michaels, “Like It’s Over” by Jai Wolf, and “Winterbreak” by MUNA. All amazing songs that I have over played in the last month.

May not seem like a lot but it’s more than the past few months so i’m happy.

I am hoping to have more content for you guys later this week but as I said it’s been crazy adjusting. But, be on the look out!

As always,

XO

happy listening

here’s to hoping we all can make it to friday!

soundtrack to my life

I’ve put up posts before about change. You all seemed to like them so I thought that I’d try one more. This one is a little different. I never made a big deal out of my transferring to another University and you know maybe I should’ve. It’s really hard to admit to failure out loud. Now certainly leaving Temple may not be a failure to most people, but to me it meant that I was quitting on a dream. But, I’ve come to a realization.

I guess this is me now admitting that i’m going to Susquehanna University this spring and every semester till I graduate. I’m so excited for this new journey but with every new endeavor comes fear and I guess it never hit me until I was sitting in my dorm room at a new school.

Now enough babbling because now i’m shaking and I can’t type when that happens. So I wanted to share with you a select few songs that have gotten me through everything.

So first I have to say that for some reason it’s just a lot of random songs.

The song that stands out to me the most is “Drag” by Day Wave. It gives me all my teen angst satisfaction and it’s so catchy. The chorus I literally can never get out of my head, perfect song to listen to when you just need to drive around.

Next is “The Middle” by Wet. Now if anyone reading this knows me at all they know that I love this band. I covered one of their shows in Philly and it was truly electric. So this song comes off their new album that has yet to be released. I mean come on it’s literally about a girl feeling trapped and that’s something anyone can relate to probably.

Now comes “Wait” by M83. One of my all time favorite bands because they make me feel so many things. This song is just everything I need and more when I just need a deep think. It helps me focus (and cry..a lot). You’ll thank me later.

Two songs by Andrew Belle have stood out to me for so long. “The Enemy” and “Dark Matter” are so beautiful. Definitely slow songs but who cares when the words mean so much. Sometimes it just takes a good song to help you realize how you actually feel.

It wouldn’t be a post by me without The 1975. Their classic song “Somebody Else” is so hypnotizing to me. I’ve listened to it so many times and every time it comes on shuffle I just can’t skip it.

Then John Mayer decided to come out with his first wave of music off his upcoming album. So then all I did was listen to those songs and let me tell you they are incredible. My favorite is “Moving On and Getting Over”. 10/10 would recommend for any situation you’re in.

So this is the soundtrack to my life right now and yeah these songs will change so maybe as they do I will write another one of these.

Here’s to hoping for better days.

XO

What To Watch For

Obviously with the new year comes new music. Some artists have already announced albums for the upcoming year and i’m going to make a list of the ones that you should be watching for. Here they are in no particular order:

  1. The xx, ‘I See You’ is coming out January 13 so mark your calendars because you wont be disappointed. After their lead single, “On Hold”, came out I could feel that even though a very pop sound was coming through its going to be good.
  2. Dua Lipa, ‘Dua Lipa’.Her self entitled album will be released in February 9th. I put her on the radar after I heard her song, “Blow Your Mind”. Its a different kind of pop sound that I like. Its not cookie cutter, she’s going to have a breakthrough year in 2017 just watch out for her.
  3. Lorde, TBA. When the Coachella lineup came out and I saw her name on the list I almost cried. This will be her first performance since her 3 year break after ‘Pure Herione’. Her album will be expected sometime around spring and personally I don’t think I can wait any longer.
  4. Haim, TBA. Like Lorde these girls were all the hype in 2013 and honestly the music world hasn’t been the same since they left. Their album is expected this summer and with Rostam Batmanglij from Vampire Weekend as their producer I would expect great things.
  5. Phoenix, TBA. After releasing their first album in 2009 and then their sophomore album in 2013 they were one of my favorite bands. To see them now in 2017 coming out with a brand new album and headlining the Governors Ball in NYC is crazy to me. Im anxiously waiting to hear if their sound is still the same.
  6. The Shins, ‘Heartworms’. They will be releasing their first album since 2012 on March 1oth. They just announced today that along with that they are going on tour to support the album. I have been waiting for this since ‘Port of Morrow’. “It’s Only Life” to this day is still one of my favorite songs.

Obviously these are my most anticipated albums if you have any that you are looking forward to and you think I should know just leave a comment! I didn’t add Drake cause lets face it nothing will make up for the disaster that was ‘Views’. Kanye is also rumored to drop this year but he’s so unreliable that it’s probably not worth mentioning.

Here’s to hoping that 2017 isn’t a disappointment.

XO

Best of 2016

It can be hard to wrap up a whole year of music because of how many different areas of music there are. This year was crazy with how much music came out, looking back all of my favorite artists dropped albums. Now I can’t complain about that because as all of us know that’s like a dream come true. It has however made it hard to listen to list all my favorites.

By now i’m sure you’ve read all the articles about peoples favorite albums of 2016. I didn’t want to be just another list for people to search through. My site has always been a little more personal than that. Everyone’s music taste is different and depending on what music you listen to most lists don’t even pertain to your taste. Like imagine if you didn’t listen to rap music..what list would you even look at that didn’t have Kanye West or Chance the Rapper on it. Lucky for you my taste is broad but it won’t cover country music because lets face it…no thanks.

So i’m going to give you a top 3 of my favorites albums, under the categories of rap, alternative and overall. May not seem like a lot but it’s take at least a month to figure out my list of top 10 and to narrow that all down takes a lot of thinking.

So, first lets start with my favorite genre, alternative:

  1. The Lumineers // Cleopatra 
  2. Wet // Don’t You 
  3. The 1975 // I Like It When You Sleep, For You Are So Beautiful Yet So Unaware Of It

Now I don’t want any complaining about this. There were a lot of runner ups like Bon Ivers, 22 A Million. It took so much for me to not put it in my top 3. These 3 albums to me were smooth the whole way through. Each of them has something different that I just can’t get over. The Lumineers proved that there is no sophomore slump, Wet showed what true songwriting is, and The 1975 made a statement that they are the best live act right now.

Now onto rap music, this was hard.

  1. Chance the Rapper // Coloring Book 
  2. Frank Ocean // Blonde 
  3. Kanye West // Life of Pablo 

Wow okay deep breath after that. So yes in my final list I put Frank Ocean above Kanye West. I think that after it is all over i’d rather listen to Blonde. Frank really out did himself this year with two albums and a magazine. I think that fame really got to Kanye this year which is sad but honestly Life of Pablo will go down as one of my favorite albums of all time. Kanye is a mastermind. As everyone knows by now Chance stole 2016 from every other artist. It doesn’t get any better than hearing him sing “and we back, and we back” at the beginning of “All We Got”. Coloring Book was truly an inspiring album that took my breath away when I first heard it.

For the finale here were my Top 3 most listened to albums of the year,

  1. The 1975 // I Like It When You Sleep, For You Are So Beautiful Yet So Unaware Of It
  2. Wet // Don’t You 
  3. Chance the Rapper // Coloring Book 

As for 2017 I just hope that it brings as much amazing music as this past year. Obviously we all will have different opinions of what the best albums were but I thought I would let you know mine. Here’s to hoping that Drake realizes his music is trash in the new year.

Let me know your favorites!!

XO